That is what today has been. Right from the moment of dragging myself out of bed to the unworking sleeping tablet in my system now. It is not doing anything tonight but lovely psychiatrists other options are not acceptable to me at the present.
Besides even if I did let him tinker around with my meds I don't see that it would significantly improve things enough to put up with the side effects.
The world seem black today. I managed to go out in it without scaring people. All I could do was sit and pretend to be reading. I wasn't reading though. The words in my head wouldn't let anything else in. Even this is a bit taxing.
Such a dark and miserable day.